“I just read a letter today. Someone’s letter for someone she haven’t met yet. Someone who may not exist. Someone just like you. I thought you could have written one for me so I have written one for you just the same.” ~ Fauxx’ Unsent Letter to Someone From the Future
I thought of using “My Destiny” or “Dear Better Half” as greetings but I think it’s overkill.
It’s 1:46 in the morning and I really need to sleep so let’s make this a quick informal one. I actually should be sleeping right now ~emphasizing about me having to sleep~ but this little voice inside me whimpers that I have to write something for you before I put myself to a night’s slumber.
So real business mode.
I am in ‘the’ state of wishful thinking that you’ve already found me. I imagine that while I walk the dim-lighted street every night, you are somewhere stalking me ~ hiding behind every lampposts I passes while I whistle a Canon in D. It would be a great story. You know about me already, and I on the other hand doesn’t know that you exist.
But I can’t also deny the probability that I already found you long ago. I may have bumped on you while I walk my way to the university. I may have said sorry but you didn’t care. But I knew it was you because I felt ‘it’. I felt something that is unknown to me not until I met you. It was that unique feeling ~that I happen to feel only to you amongst the hundred people I already knew. Back then, we bumped on each other accidentally.
But then again, I could be wrong.
Because you are actually my childhood playmate who knows my childhood dreams. You and I played a lot and shared a humongous wall of memories. That I need not search the world because you are just a house away from me. How could I miss that one important sign that it was you all along? And all my wasted time searching, I should have wasted on you.
But again, on the nth time, my theories are all wrong.
I may have found you already or I haven’t yet. I still believe in the idea that You and I will meet someday. With this presumption, I can really go to sleep now ~because who knows, I’ll be meeting you later tonight in a scenario I haven’t thought of yet. If that happens, please remind me that it is you I am searching for.
But of course, I won’t believe you just like that.