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Eureka on Dad’s Notebook

Proposition:  my joy,

Since i could not avail myself with any opportunity i then could only writtenly express myself to you… for occasion seems to be hostile to the intention which i have longed to impart.  Also, sometimes a feeling of hesitation comes within me for i could foresee the consequences of this revelation, if, by chance, you’ll take this act of mine as a mere joke of my love ventures.  Nevertheless, to keep this instinctive emotion only by myself will no doubt lead me to nowhere.

In the past years of my life, never have i known a person of such character as you have.  i’m very proud to have met a person like you.  In a manner of speaking, it seems to me that i have already known you for a very long period of time, even if we have met and have known each other for only a short period, ago.

…it may be surprising but i think i’m in love with you… i don’t just think that i am in love with you but i know and i am certain that i do.  this must be surprising to you, but it surprised me also when i came to think that i was missing you than what i shoud have felt naturally.

Very surprising indeed.  But isn’t love very noble? to fall in love is not to like someone for her brains or beauty alone but it is in its true sense – self giving which is primarily based on trust and understanding.

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**This is composed by my Dad, probably, when he was on his teenage years. I guess nineteen years of age or probably early twenties. I really do not know. Grammars are not edited to preserve originality of what my Dad wanted to express to the recipient/s of this letter. I found his notebook while cleaning the house years ago.. Didn’t tell him about it and up until now, I claimed it to be my possession. He probably didn’t know until today that I do have his three notebooks, and I am not going to tell him anyway. It was weird, back teenage years, I also do not capitalize my ‘I’ when writing.. And yes, this isn’t a letter for my Mom. I asked Mom if this was for hers, she said it’s not. She said it’s for my Dad’s ex. Mom’s answer is without jealousy and envy.. So probably, that’s what love is. Self giving, trust and understanding.

266 Comments to “Eureka on Dad’s Notebook”

  1. Lionheart says:

    Sweet naman… Kainggit! Hehe :)

  2. Ax says:

    Mon, waiting for this?

    Anyways, I spent my three hours last night looking for the Roam magazine kuya Dong Ho delivered to my office some months back. I hate it, I’ve only read the magazine halfway and now.. it’s missing.

    I wonder where that magazine is. Asked everybody in the house and either they do not recognize the magazine or they do not know.

  3. Wolf says:

    That’s nice. I can’t imagine your father writing that! :D Kala ko mahilig lang siyang magkumpuni ng electrical devices/appliances :D

    What’s? the cam? Anyway, it doesn’t matter :)

  4. bonistation says:

    wow astig ng daddy mo! so sa kanya kapala nag mana kaya ka english ng english! ahihihi!!

    priceless possession yan ingatan mo!

    • Ax says:

      haha, magagaling sila magenglish pero hindi halata. yay.

      honga, iingatan ko nga.. minsan nga lang kung saan saan ko nailalagay. hehe.

  5. pengengbente says:

    ahhh… ang ganda naman, pag binasa mo parang nararamdaman mo na rin yung nararamdaman nung nagsulat… alabet!!!

    mas epektib pa rin yung loveletter noh?… uhmm ehh baka sa akin lang haha!

    • Ax says:

      honga, mas epektib ang love letter. yung mga traditional setup.. (setup daw oh.) hehe.

      actually di ko inedit yung mga grammar.. oks lang, hehe. mukha namang okay kahit walang edit yung letter.

  6. Joyo says:

    bakit ang panget ng avatar ko bilang pengengbente? :lol: ang sweet ng tatay mo Ginoong Ax… lab ko na siya hahaha!

  7. machongbutiki says:

    wow, no doubt, kya magaling ka din magsulat kasi may pinagmanahan. hehehe. apir! at dahil jan may nagtext. hahaha. adik!!! have a nice day axo.. hehehe. =)

  8. may pinagmanahan sa galing ng pagsusulat…

    hehehe naku, itatago ko na ang mga diaries ko. hehe.

  9. mtoni says:

    dapat pang valentine post yan.

    tama sila, mana ka sa daddy mo.

  10. jasn says:

    nakanaman.

    ang naaalala ko lang eh puro kwento ang bahagi ni daddy. yung mga lumang notebook na nakukuha ko kay daddy puro planner. puro schedules ng work.

    papakita mo ba yan sa daddy mo?

    ax late na ko d2 nako naman.

    • Ax says:

      Hehe, pag nakita niya, feeling ko wala lang. Tapos, pag tinanong niya ko, isasagot ko, aw, ngayon ko lang nakita yan.

      Mind games. hehe.

  11. mr. nonsense says:

    kailangan ko palang sunugin ang mga porn magazines natin dahil makikita lang ng mga anak natin…just like u, i also took posession of my dad’s periodicals.

    anyway, parang si ax sumulat…maraming words…walang meaning

  12. jasn says:

    diba medyo magkahawig kayo ng sulat ni daddy mo ax?

  13. Squall says:

    SELF-GIVING, TRUST, and UNDERSTANDING

    yan lang malinaw na nabasa ko hehe

    ang lalim ha

  14. orville says:

    grabe ax.. galing naman ng article na to… di ko maisip if ako ang nasa situation na ganyan someday na makikita ko ang notebook ng asawa ko para sa ex nya… ahmm. pero very brave nga naman ng mom mo… tama ka .. that is love…

    two thumbs up para sa post na to!!

  15. Mon says:

    wow usong-uso talaga ang mga love letters nung una. at ang sweet naman ng pagkakagawa. ang galing ng dad mo Ax! bilib ako! sobra. ^^

  16. Yah! Bakit kasi di na uso ang mga love letters? Uso na ang ligaw-text kaya ayun, uso na rin ang basted-text.

    Intense mag-sulat ang tatay mo. :-) Parang makalaglag-panty. Buti na lang, nagkatuluyan sila ng nanay mo. Kung hindi, naku, baka alang blog na tulad nito. :-)

  17. eli says:

    hala ax, naghalungkat ka..hehe

    galing mag-compose ng letter ni daddy.

  18. sandi says:

    ayun, hindi nakakapagtakang magaling kang mag sulat ax..may pinagmanahan ka kasi ;)

  19. timangkey says:

    hehehe, ganyan din kaya pag mababasa ng mga anak natin mga blog natin?

    anyway, mana ka nga sa dad mo. magaling din magsulat.

    at teka nga? ano hinahanap mo noong naghalungkat ka?hahaha hmmmm….

  20. timangkey says:

    Eureka on Dad’s Notebook…

    kapag nalaman nya tinatago mo yan at nipublish mo pa,

    Yarika on Dad’s Notebook…

  21. biohazard says:

    It really runs in the blood Ax.

    I know your father since grade-school and he is the silent one….

    With deep thoughts..

    Salute Salute!!

  22. voodooboxer says:

    hahahaha. this is cute but a little weird. i can’t imagine you telling same lines personally.

    …….to love is to pursue everything the feeling requires without encouragement. that is my say.

  23. walongbote says:

    alam mo may pinagmanahan ka ax?!! ALAM na! haha.. grabe dinugo din ako sa love letter ng teenage life ng iyong dad. haha.galing!. Ang tanong eh mukang di niya ata iyan naibigay kasi nakuha mo pa nga eh.. hehe. sayang naman. feeling ko nga sa mama mo pa din yan, hindi na lang niya naibigay kasi sinagot na xa.. oii.. nagaanalize ako haha. :)

    New blogentry :)

  24. Galing naman…

    Probably some little grammatical nips and tucks here and there, but the writing is fluid and sincere… :)

    Nasabi na nila, pero sasabihin ko pa rin, may pinagmanahan ka nga… :)

    I can relate to Fr. Fiel although I don’t keep diaries. What I have are writing notebooks since high school… In this computer age, I still find it comfortable to write in pen and paper rather than type… :) At ang dami ko na ring notebooks…

  25. Aina ♥ says:

    Aww. Awesome. Wala akong makita rito sa bahay kundi mga sulat na pinagsusulat ko eh. Hohoho. Ang cute naman, parang super pure nung intention nung letter. Naive and simple. Kyaaaa.

    Hi Kuya Ax. I’m back in the blogging scene. Lol.

  26. dong ho says:

    indeed a great find ax. i would have done the same thing if i found one from my father. mahanap nga.

  27. julxe says:

    wow lek, i didn’t know na si tito pala ay nagsusulat ng love letter.. pero dapat in-assume na din natin yan kasi minsan din silang naging katulad ng edad natin…

    thank you pala sa paglagay mo ng link ng blogsite ko sa WEB.. ek-ek mo.. I appreciate it!

  28. sows says:

    hmm, silent type but a serious lover, nakakainggit tlga mga girls nung araw. wen luv strikes unto ur dad, he let his pen speak for itself (& i wont be surprise if ur dat type too).

    and galeng ni dad mo! im a fan.. :wink:

  29. orville says:

    ax salamat sa tips mo sa akin.. laking tulong mo talaga.. hehe..

  30. robert says:

    wow astig sweet naman yan… pero sad nga lang sana hindi kau ganyan…

  31. shea says:

    hay….

    ang sweet…

    nalaglag yata puso ko…

    hmmmmm….

    (i burned all the love letters i received) nyahahaha

  32. lagot ka, sumbong kita.. he he!

  33. dencios says:

    idol pala si daddy e

    haha

    nice

    naalala ko before yung loveletter na ginawa ko, tinapon ko na, nakita ko binabasa ng tatay ko. hinablot ko agad hahaha

  34. livingstain says:

    lagot ka sa dad mo ayan na sya…

    kala mo hindi kita pinapasyalan noh… ingat lage

  35. it’s so painful in the side of your mother. are you keeping that forever? what is your mother’s response with this letter?

    • Ax says:

      no, not at all. not a single glitch of pain i can see from my mom’s. these are letters of my dad’s. his emotions and work of masterpiece when he was a teenager. he may remember the girl, but he does not remember the feeling he had once. and mom does not fret losing my dad over these letters.. and about your question, these are my dad’s memories so i am keeping this forever.

      OT: yeah, saw on the book it was English III. probably, he was 18 or 19 years old.

  36. Allen says:

    wow. now I know kung san mo nakuha yang talent mo! hehe

  37. orville says:

    ayan ax.. follow ko na blog mo sa facebook.. kain tayo..

  38. taribong says:

    Ang galing naman, naitago pa ang mga notebooks!!!
    Masarap balikan ang mga notes, lalo na yung mga scribbles hehehe minsan nakapagtaka kung paano mo naisip ang mga iyon toinks

  39. ron says:

    oh..wow..how i wish i could read those notebooks. do you find it freaky when you read all these, and see yourself in them. hmmm… you’re dad is very romantic and well-versed. seems really cool!

    • Ax says:

      indeed, i saw a part of me in these notebooks.. but i would say, my brother really did get all my dad’s traits and attributes. i could be wrong..

      yup, though i believe, every one of us has this romanticism blood running through our veins.

  40. WAW! nagsusulat ka tlaga? amazing. pang vintage collection na yang notes mo.

  41. davin says:

    waw! love letter ni itay! hehehe…
    pakita mo sa kanya, matutuwa un. hahaha :)
    pag nagliligpit ako ng mga lumang gamit, nagtatagal dahil may nakita kang magpapaalala ng old memories. pag nakita yan ng tatay mo, ano kaya reaksyon nya?

    • Ax says:

      even me, pag nagligpit ako ng kwarto, wala pahinto hinto kase tinitingnan mo yung mga bagay na magpapaalala sa’yo ng iba pang bagay bagay at mapapaisip ko.

      ayun, huminto ang mundo mo.

      di ka na nakapaglinis. ganitong ganito ako!

  42. ron says:

    you have a pretty wild mind, Ax. continue searching for answers and feel free to share… sometimes i wonder what if i am a dream of someone dreaming in his sleep..haha!

  43. jasn says:

    pasensya na axo ha medyo busydays si jasonhamster.

    grabe dami kong ginawa kanina….

    kamusta na

  44. aninipot says:

    how romantic…. kitang-kita ang traditional na pagsabi ng nararamdaman… wala paring kupas tlaga ang loveletters ano?…sa panahon ngayon isa na yang kayamanan na dapat ingatan…hahaha, ang chessy ko.

    • Ax says:

      hindi pa naman nawawala ang love letters ngayon.. although in other forms. email. text messages. applications.

      nage-evolve lang! at hindi naman cheesy yung sinabi mo!

  45. bluguy says:

    ang galing at ganda naman…haysss!

    i used to write luvletters, as well, yes ganun ako ka romantic. sayang marami dito inanod na ng baha…

    ….kung sabagay ok na rin yun…wala naman akong anak, katulad mo AX, na magbabasa nito…

    …alam ko na alam mo!

    • Ax says:

      hm, so kailangan may emphasis. yay. okay, quiet lang naman ako ah! hehe. well, oo nga, sweet ka nga sa mga love letters! no doubt.. ang isang kuya Blu ay napagaling gumawa ng loveletter!

  46. beeftapa says:

    ang ganda nman gumawa ng love letter ni itay. ramdam na ramdam. ahehehe…

  47. J.Kulisap says:

    Sana pala Axie pinost mo itong pang Valentine.

    O nangialam na naman ako..Bakit ba? Akin tong site na ito eh..writer ka lang…lang..lang

  48. your discovery reminds me of my own siguro mga more than a decade ago pero it was a book of quotes with doodles by my dad and mom. certainly made me feel good that i can connect to whatever it was it happened — the doodling. siguro that’s the emptiness that some adopted people have of their roots. it might be a glimpse because i can never feel what they feel.

    • Ax says:

      the feeling that was preserved inside a notebooks’ writings. yun yung priceless talaga! kahit cheesy, nakakatawa, maraming maling grammar, malungkot.. ano pa man yun, eto yung mga bagay na hindi matutumbasan kahit notebooks na gawa sa ginto pero walang nakasulat.

      it’s like i have time travelled.. and i knew, i was meant to witness a speck of life of what my dad was back then.

  49. kaye says:

    there’s an uncanny resemblance in your writing style with your dad’s. :-)

    napaisip tuloy ako, what will your own children discover when they look through your things many years from now? Or would they find everything on the net? hehehe.

    • Ax says:

      hello po, magrereply po ako ng maayos mamaya! hehe

    • Ax says:

      hello, ms. kaye! oo nga ano, like your kids.. ayan, makikita na nila ang mga sinusulat niyo years from now.. hehe. everything is on the net, i hope, wag malugi ang wordpress.. i doubt naman.

      :)

      • kaye says:

        ako, mahilig ako magsulat eh… yung panganay ko nababasa na niya. yun ngang mga sinusulat ko sa blog ko noon sa friendster na nilipat ko dito sa friendster, nagrereply siya e lalo tungkol sa kanya yung topic. hehehe…

        do you keep a journal at home? wag mo itapon para may mabasa din mga kids mo in the future. :-)

  50. wow..baet naman Mom mo..she really loves your dad..

    psst..kaw b ung nakita ko? hehe

    • Ax says:

      hindi ko alam kung ako yung nakita mo. hehe. sa LRT ba yan? hehe.

      • nag lrt kaba? last saturday night..past 10 na un..sa may rcbc..haha..ur wearing white shirt with a backpack

        • Ax says:

          haha, yep, backpackers nga ako these days. ako nga yown!

          • ahaha..sabi ko na nga ba…halu..di kita mgrit kasi baka hindi ikaw..tsaka may kasama ka

            • Ax says:

              sorry ha, kase parang ang ligalig ko nung time na yun. yung kasama ko kase kinikiliti ako sa tuhod. hehe. nakakahiya tuloy!

            • ha? parang hindi naman..para ngang nkatayo lang kayo dun e..tapos nakita ko na lang pasakay na kayo sa jip..

              before pa un, xe mas nauna kayo dun sa spot..nakilala na agad kita..tapos napalakas p nga ata ung sabi ko na..aun ata si ax o, ung crush ni precious..tas napatingin kasama mo..kaya aun..haha..

            • Ax says:

              ah, okay. ako nga yon. pm shift kase ako ngayon.. tapos may kasama ako, naka white shirt at naka back pack. maingay kase ako nung lumabas kami ng building tapos lahat ng opismate ko, nagb b bye ako tapos tinatawag ko.. hehe.

              tapos yung kasama ko, gumaganti, kinikiliti ako sa tuhod!

            • ah, ok..san b ofce mo? dun n lng sa my rcbc kita nakita..at ok k nman nun,,hindi nakikipagharutan..hehe

              2 to 10 ka din no..
              pepel sepert kb>

            • Ax says:

              nope, i am not from people support.. you have said my building on the comments above.. hehe.

              ayown, buti naman di mo ako nakita na maharot nung time na yown. haha. kulit kase ng kasama ko.. gumaganti sa akin kase inaaway ko. haha. tapos, nagbibigay pa ako sa kanya ng bente, pamasahe namin.. dagdagan na lang niya para mag taxi kami. aw. ayown, medyo mahirap sumakay ng jeep nung time na yon.

            • ah, taga rcbc ka lang pala..
              sows..sakto…manlibre ka ng kape..hehe

              oo, may event kase..dun lahat puntahan mga tao..kame nga naglakad simula paseo e..

            • precious says:

              joyz, if my memory serves me well, d last tym wev tokd ws d tym i told u i saw this guy (d 2nd tym). den, u told me, “i love him na”. now what? dnt put me in an akward situation. wer ol friends hir. ur unbelievable.

              im not mad in any ways. im just..

              =speechless mode=

            • Ax says:

              uy, sa totoo lang, nahihiya na ako sa inyo kase nakikita niyo ako. waah! parang nakakahiya, ayoko ng maging maligalig talaga.. haha, may isa pang nakakita sa akin din at confirmed nga na ako. hehe! opismate naman ng kaibigan ko ng college na nagbabasa din ng blog ko. aw. magbabagong anyo na nga ako!

            • FREE,ala, laglag din ako..haha..nagulat lang talaga ako..churi naman friend..peace tau ah..hehe

              AKSO, ayaw mo nun, kaw pinakavisible na blogger..hehe..masaya nga un e..

            • Ax says:

              haha! nakakatuwa rin pero paranoid na ako kase maligalig ako minsan. haha, lalo na kung may kasama ako.. baka madaldal ako tapos makita tulad ni Father Fiel, haha, nakakahiya!

            • ok lang un..e ikaw un e..hehe

  51. Richard says:

    wow! umaabot ng 200 plus reactions dito a. btw, pansin ko lang talaga sa mga tao noon, ang gagaling sa Ingles… ang lalim… at ang galing. kung may blog na noon, for sure yun gagamitin ng erpat mo. hehe

    • Ax says:

      mamaya na po ako magrereply ng maayos, kase nasira tong site ko. hehe.

    • Ax says:

      uy, ayown, hehe. comments, wala lang yan.

      uhm, oo nga. ang gagaling nila mag-english. haha. actually, sabi ng tito ko sobrang gagaling daw ng propesor dati. pag english, englishan din.. aba, tiningnan ko yung iba nilang class pictures, kaya naman pala, may mga american na teacher dati.. hehe.

      siguro nga nagblog din yung mga daddy/mommy natin dati kung meron na neto. hehe.

  52. mtoni says:

    aba bukas na!

  53. .poOt! says:

    I’m baaaaack. Di pa rin tapos ng thesis. Pero nag-eencode nako.

    I have been busy with my thesis these past few weeks that I failed to visit your blog every now and then. Btw, watch out for my new entry tomorrow. For sure, it will be a “love-me-or-hate-me” post. Want a clue? Ok… Noynoy

    • Ax says:

      Tapusin mo na thesis mo. Hehe, sorry pag di ako nakakareply sa tanong mo sa thesis mo ha.. Hehe. Anyways, tanong ka lang, hanggang kaya naming sagutin, sasagot kami dyan sa thesis mo! hehe.

      At ang Noynoy artic mo, sige hihintayin ko yan.

    • Ax says:

      yeah, you’re back from outer space!

  54. dhyoy says:

    whew! blockbuster ang love letter ni erpats…. :)

  55. ODDBLOOD says:

    i just wonder kung rough draft pa lang ‘yan ng dad mo and kung naibigay niya yung real copy sa ex niya..haha..marami kasi sa atin diba, di binibigay yung mga ginagawang love letter..newey, your dad writes really great english.. :D

    • Ax says:

      feeling ko draft lang yan.. sunod sunod kase yung page na ganyan yung sulat.. naiba lang ng unti, may inibang words, may siningit.. pero di ko alam yung final draft. hehe. i think binigay niya yung love letter, kase there comes a page in the notebook na sumagot ulit yung dad ko. hehe.

  56. bonistation says:

    napdaan, baka may bago. hihi

  57. Vajarl says:

    And I can only imagine your dad’s face if ever he sees that. :P I mean, if I ever have kids and one of them sees any of my journal entries, I think I would either give them away to strangers (the kids), or sell myself to some kind of underground mafia in need of a slave. :P

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